urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:seanan_mcguire The Journal of Seanan McGuire Seanan McGuire 2012-02-16T04:12:38Z urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:seanan_mcguire:422014 2012-02-16T04:12:38Z 2012-02-16T04:12:38Z Counting Crows, "Rain King." Words: 35,287.<br />Total words: 92,654.<br />Reason for stopping: I need to eat a food.<br />Music: lots of dance music and modern country.<br />The cats: Alice, bed; Thomas, who knows; Lilly, guest bed.<br /><br />So, uh. Yeah, I did <i>not</i> do all that in one night, but apparently I missed a few word count posts, so this is sort of getting me back into alignment. I actually wrote about 6,000 words tonight, after finishing my word count for "San Diego 2014" and realizing that I finally knew how to make the ending fall together the way that it's supposed to. Tomorrow night, I'll do the same thing (work on the project with a closer due date first, and then slide back into Verity's shoes for a little tango), and then this weekend, I'll probably type "THE END" on the draft as a whole.<br /><br />It feels weird. Like, really weird. It's weird that I haven't finished it yet, and it's weird that it's so close to ending, because right now, this is it. I do not have a contract for book three, and whether I get one will be determined partially by how <i>Discount Armageddon</i> does. So this could be the end for me in this universe, and I'm not ready yet. I don't want to go. But the ending is here, and I have to let it be honest. I don't cheat. Not with things like this.<br /><br />But it feels so weird. So, so weird.<br /><br />I hope this isn't the end.