INDEXING: REFLECTIONS episode #8: "Holly Tree."

Subject says it all

Bear with me, here --

Years ago, my sister was telling us all over a holiday dinner how her ex-boyfriend at the time was calling her up at all hours of the day and night, saying he was suicidal, demanding that she see him and take him back. She was telling the story, half-laughing, and the punchline was that she hung up on him, dialed 911 and said where he was and what was going on, and then turned off the ringer on her phone. We all laughed along with her funny story. And I was a little bit surprised that my baby sister was that *tough*. That she could do something like that.

Later that year, my sister let us all know about some bad things that had happened to her, that none of us had suspected.

I thought about Larry Underwood.

I thought, "Yes. There is something in my sister that is like biting down on tinfoil. She looks soft and fragile, but there is something DEEPLY tough about my sister." On some fundamental level, my baby sister can absofuckinglutely do whatever needs to be done.

And she fucking well *paid* for that gift.

I would never wish that emotional tinfoil core on anybody. The cost is .... well, it is what it is. I don't wish it on anyone.

But I am never afraid that life is going to give my sister more than she can handle. I am not afraid *for* my sister. And I know .... I know she can do the hard things. When hard things are required.

So, Sloan.

Yes.

Thank you.

Henry.

Yes.

Thank you, Seanan.

... pretty sure this comment still doesn't make sense. But, thank you.

I know it's given as a 315, but looking at the hint, and a little looking a 480 might make sense.

not to bother Seanan, so can someone else answer?

Ive checked around and didn't see if Indexing will at some point go to paper-version. There's a place on my shelf all ready for it :)

Indexing Reflections is going to have paper copies (amazon has it available for pre-order now) and Indexing paper copy is available on amazon as well....