Oh, home, why do I ever leave you?: seanan

Oh, home, why do I ever leave you?

Thomas met us at the door last night, tail puffed out, already singing the song of his people. Alice shunned me for about an hour, skittering from room to room, refusing to let me look her in the eye. When she settled, she announced it by crawling on top of me and purring for an hour solid, making it impossible to sleep.

Home.

I always think, when I'm traveling, that I'll come in the door and be stunned by how much stuff I have amassed. "I'm finally going to see the mess for what it is, and be able to get rid of half of it with no regrets," I think, and then I get into my room, and crawl into the mass of plush toys that is my bed, like a Pokemon into long grass, and I remember that this is why I have so much stuff: because it defines the borders of my space. It claims the space in a way that is very precious to me. It's not careless clutter. It's careful assertion of my right to exist, safely, in this space.

Home.

I am so tired that I can feel my bones, and I'm working my way through a dozen slow to-do lists, some of them time-sensitive, others that just need to be accomplished. I am where I belong, at least for a little while, at least until I have to leave again.

Home.

There's no place I'd rather be.

wispfox

April 16 2015, 21:00:26 UTC 2 years ago

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Welcome home!

kdsorceress

April 16 2015, 22:36:19 UTC 2 years ago

Fancy meeting you here!

And to Seanan...this post really resonates with me! I love the determination of "clutter-as-proof-of-home", and I am very fond of the idea of a bed filled with plush things --mine tends to look rather like that as well, whenever I have the luxury to make it thus.

~Sor

seanan_mcguire

2 years ago

notalwaysweak

April 17 2015, 01:57:16 UTC 2 years ago

I'm happy you're home safe and well.

April 19 2015, 14:22:16 UTC 2 years ago

Jet lagged but recovering!

anne_d

April 17 2015, 01:58:19 UTC 2 years ago

Welcome home, Seanan!

April 19 2015, 14:22:24 UTC 2 years ago

Thank you!

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April 19 2015, 14:22:32 UTC 2 years ago

YES.

filceolaire

April 17 2015, 05:30:52 UTC 2 years ago

Your posts make me smile.
Love to you and your cats and your stuff

April 19 2015, 14:22:46 UTC 2 years ago

I am sorry I didn't get to see you more. <3

bunny_m

April 17 2015, 05:59:33 UTC 2 years ago

Welcome home, Seanan!

I know the experience of "OMGYOUREHOME!!!!/I'm shunning you for leaving me alone!" all too well myself, as I'm sure do all the other feline monkey-slaves here.

Huzzah for being able to crash in your own bed again!

April 19 2015, 14:22:57 UTC 2 years ago

My cats are so happy.

martianmooncrab

April 17 2015, 09:46:05 UTC 2 years ago

that is my bed, like a Pokemon into long grass,

... I think of that scene in Buckaroo Banzai where they are in the factory, and John goes "its a nest, a red lectroid nest" and it had some very cool toys and things that children would like.

April 19 2015, 14:23:11 UTC 2 years ago

There are so many Pokemon in my bed.

_dante_sparda_

April 17 2015, 11:11:38 UTC 2 years ago

Welcome home, dearest Seanan. :) May your first sleeps bring you the rest you need.

April 19 2015, 14:23:18 UTC 2 years ago

calico_reaction

April 17 2015, 11:24:46 UTC 2 years ago

Rest well. You've earned it!

April 19 2015, 14:23:35 UTC 2 years ago

I am still not sleeping properly, but I'm adjusting. Slowly.

purpleranger

April 17 2015, 17:35:48 UTC 2 years ago

So, you've already done the whole clicking your heels three times bit? ;)

April 19 2015, 14:23:47 UTC 2 years ago

Did not work, I'm afraid.

vettecat

April 17 2015, 19:25:15 UTC 2 years ago

Welcome home! Enjoy being covered with fur.

April 19 2015, 14:23:55 UTC 2 years ago

I am!

gwyd

April 18 2015, 10:49:47 UTC 2 years ago

There is no comfort quite like one's own bedroom arranged the way one likes it.

April 19 2015, 14:24:04 UTC 2 years ago

Agreed.

mac_arthur_park

April 18 2015, 22:47:48 UTC 2 years ago

I feel the same way. When I travel, my first thought is "My stuff!" I don't deal well away from my bed and Mr. Bear for more than a day or two.

Welcome home. And excellent choice in music, btw.