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May 29 2012, 16:56:06 UTC 5 years ago Edited: May 29 2012, 16:59:50 UTC
ETA to correct a spelling error.
May 29 2012, 17:14:46 UTC 5 years ago
Depression, in my experience, involves you telling yourself how much you suck. It's not even really a conscious thing, or at least it's not wholly conscious. THere's no other voice telling you how much you suck. It's just *you* - your thoughts, your decisions. Which is damned scary, because there's no way to protect yourself from it. You can't just say "Okay, I'm not going to do what I want me to do." It's on the inside and it changes the very way that you think. It changes your notion of rational, and makes the depressive way of thinking seem perfectly reasonable. And you do check it against your notion of rational - and it passes, because depression controls your idea of rational.
Shaun's crazy wasn't like that. His crazy had a different voice. It coudl talk to him, annoy him, distract him - but from his POV, it wasn't *him*. Is that easier or harder to handle, I wonder?