Okay; cards on the table time.: seanan

Okay; cards on the table time.

I'm tired.

I don't mean "Seanan needs a nap." I mean "crying at the slightest provocation, reciting primes to keep myself motivated to finish taking a shower, ready to curl up in a ball and die." So please. I am begging you here. I mean literally, I'm begging. Please...

...don't email me and then get angry when you don't get an instantaneous reply.

...don't ask why you can't have the next book NOW RIGHT NOW. I mean, unless your goal is seeing me cry. In that case, knock yourself out.

...don't tell me I'm neglecting my friends/social life/sanity when I don't come to your party. You know what? I know I'm neglecting those things. You know what else? I don't have a choice right now. I'm sorry. I wish I did. But I don't.

I am out of go. My candle is burning at both ends, and starting to melt in the middle. So handle me gently, do not prod me with sticks, and do not tell me I need to "take time for me." If the time existed, I would take it. It doesn't exist for me to take.

I'm tired.

In the interests of not turning a PSA into another source of stress, I will not be answering comments on this entry. Thank you for understanding.

stormerider

July 19 2011, 12:13:28 UTC 5 years ago

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*hugs* *offers you some extra spoons*

I just finished Feed and Deadline in the span of one sitting... too hyped up by the ending of Feed not to grab Deadline and start in, after I stopped crying. I'm really looking forward to Blackout... thank you and the publisher for including the first chapter, which really softened the gut-punch that was the cliffhanger at the end of Deadline.

Now I have more Toby books to catch up on :)

lysystratae

July 19 2011, 17:26:06 UTC 5 years ago

Well, good, if you're not answering comments on this entry, then I don't have to tell you not to answer mine :) I know you haven't got time to stop and rest yet, but you do have time to do one thing - breathe.

It won't cure the tired, it won't fix the problems, but every now and then, if you take 2 seconds to stand still and take a deep breath, it will give you a tiny bit more to go on with.

We love you, we're here if you need us. Do what you gotta do.

jenniferkoliver

July 19 2011, 20:37:55 UTC 5 years ago

Just do what you have to do, and don't worry about the rest. People will just have to be patient. I'm surprised a lot of them aren't getting you're a busy person. O.o

I hope you're able to find some rest time!

starmalachite

July 19 2011, 21:32:56 UTC 5 years ago

Ohhhhhh my. Bad enough to be in such a frame of mind after SDCC, but *before*!? May your supply of Cope with Idiots replenish super-fast, and may San Diego turn out to be such a blast you don't need any.

Oh, and please never, ever feel you need to respond to any comments of mine in any way.

smoooom

July 19 2011, 23:42:34 UTC 5 years ago

Hugs, as many as will help. And I am looking forward to One Salt Sea, as much as Ghost Story. Please take care of your self.

indilwen

July 20 2011, 00:19:32 UTC 5 years ago

♥

Hoping you feel better soon.

{{{hugs}}}

paksenarrion2

July 20 2011, 00:58:32 UTC 5 years ago

The only thing that anyone should expect of anyone else?

For that person to do what makes themselves happy, to do it at their own pace and to take care of themselves. Anyone else that has any other expectations? Can go jump in the lake.