I have the life I always said I'd have someday.
Oh, it has complications I didn't necessarily bank on when I was plotting it out, since I didn't understand things like "herniated disks" and "actually having too many books" when I was nine, but for the most part? I sleep in a room that looks like the inside of a pumpkin, I have four shelves of My Little Ponies and two shelves loaded with stuffed toys, I own so many books that re-reading steadily for a year wouldn't mean getting through them all, and I have both the cat I've always wanted (Lilly) and the cat I never knew I needed (Alice). And I write books, and people read them, and it's amazing.
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I was chatting with my friend Adam last night (his books, How to Get Suspended and Influence People [Amazon] and Pirates of the Retail Wasteland [Amazon] are delightfully accurate flashbacks to my own days in the public school honors system), and he said that reviews never cease to be scary, since you don't know until you read them whether they'll be positive, negative, or written by angry mushroom people from Dimension X. But they never cease to be exciting, either.
Life is pretty damn good. How's yours?
June 28 2009, 17:02:31 UTC 8 years ago
In a similarly long-term-view vein, the thing(s) I've always wanted to do I am in good progress toward doing, having escaped (finally) the trap of "put your dreams aside and do what's practical" and obtained some degree of actual motivation.
I'm an art student now, as I always should have been, and loving it; I went from academic probation to the dean's list in one semester, and am downright enchanted with all the new things I keep learning. I am being social quite well over the internet and making some degree of progress in meatspace. I have a forum in which to write, complete with appreciative audience and lots of delicious things to read in return. I am coming to appreciate and love my physical appearance, rather than having a laundry list of things I want to change about me. I have enough things I love to keep me occupied for centuries, and even in the deepest fits of depression (which has itself perceptibly lessened) I don't lose track of that my life is, generally, solidly awesome. And I'm learning to rationally analyze my wants and how best to get them, with the result of wasting less money and effort on the parts of things that aren't important.
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Plus I've got a library in a house that's big enough to host lots of friends, I'm loved, and healthy, and it's a beautiful day. ;)
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My life is just beginning. Now let's see if I can spread my wings and fly.
June 28 2009, 20:36:57 UTC 8 years ago
This, but I'm older than you are. I spent my whole childhood surrounded by books and a mother who gladly bought me more, but writing my own -- writing was, and still is, my True Love -- was not an option. My father got rid of my notebooks, laughed at my enrolling in Creative Writing and Journalism classes, and told me the only way he'd ever pay for my education was if I "put an English degree to good use by teaching" (I come from a family of teachers and highly respect the profession, but I couldn't be a teacher; I'm too "weird" for the school-system). Well, he ended up paying for my brother instead, because he figured that since I was a girl, what need had I of a degree anyway?
So I've been paying my own way through school, and after six years of not writing at all, I was sat down a few days ago by my boyfriend, who took my face in his hands and said "It's killing you not to write; you need it to breathe. You hate your job, and if it's what it'll take to get you back into what you love, quit working there, and I'll support us as best we can. I'll gladly do it for you."
Good luck to you!
AngelVixen :-)
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Oh honey, ouch! We *so* need to talk. See you at Confluence or TCEP?
Kudos to the BF. Definitely consider keeping this one around.
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And apparently my perfect life would be something a bit like Dean Kamen's but with a lot more free time and delegation going on.
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Perfection is overrated.
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This is relevant to my interests. What style(s)?
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